One step….just one foot in front of the other.
I can feel it, that flicker in my soul, the glimmer of light finally breaking through the barrier I have so desperately built in a haste to block out absolutely every emotion I possibly could.
But, my tears didn’t mean the worst to you, they showed my strength; you saw in my eyes who it had made me become.
What you didn’t know, those tears, were tears of blood that dripped from my cracked and beaten heart. So much of me was shattered, deeply cut and wounded inside; bruised, black and blue.
You are so tender, so caring; my heart, you keep safe in the palm of your hand; a place that could either be its refuge or crushed with just the grip of your fingertips.
When you see my sadness or hear my thoughts, you judge not.
You bring a trust in myself; in a past life, I would have mocked the very thought, but it’s all changed.
Blessed do I feel that a heart like mine can still feel, that its shocks of electricity are still coursing through my veins.
Sometimes the pieces, they scream; my monster, she returns from her hiding place deep in the depths of my being.
But you, you have somehow broken down that wall that covers her, you have befriended my monster inside, made her feel as special as my shell of a human I live inside.
I have bottled up everything I can, sheltered them within hundreds of walls; one day I want them to vanish.
God, I hope they do; that they are broken down for good.